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A few days back I had my annual appointment with my eye doctor. Two years ago I had cataract surgery so I was glad to get the report that my eyes are healthy.

This morning though, I was awakened to the conviction of several ongoing sinful patterns in my life and the potential long term effects of them. As I wept over these things that continue to mark my life with heartache, I thought, wow, I can’t believe that my eye doctor couldn’t see those planks in my eyes!!!

I thought back to another situation in the past when the Spirit told me that my sins were going to cost me dearly, and eventually they had. I realized that like last time, these sins are quite possibly robbing me of the future God has for me.

While I looked at the things that I felt were impeding other people’s spiritual progress, was I even trying to fight the temptations in my own life and not give in to overeating or overspending? There, I named the planks! “Is there any more Grace for me?” I wondered behind my tears. I know there is but I also felt like I have taken advantage of the grace for so long, I certainly don’t deserve any more chances.

Then I thought of the horrible state of affairs in our country and our world, and this verse came to mind: “If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will heal their land.” II Chronicles 7:14

My wicked ways might not appear to someone else as wicked, but I know from the Bible and from the Holy Spirit’s conviction that they are. They are every bit as wicked as the sin I so easily spot in other people’s lives, the specks in their eyes.

If I ask you to think of the one area of your life where you struggle the most, what would immediately come to mind? Quite possibly, like me, you’d think of several, those repetitive sins which point to our rebellion towards God. In what areas are you fighting what feels like a losing battle for self control? In what areas are you in rebellion against God’s best plan for your life?

It’s not about us deserving or earning good things, because Jesus died so that the Father’s promise of hope and a future will be ours even though we don’t deserve it.

What if the reason I repay God’s goodness with sin is because I don’t believe I deserve anything good? What if, like a naughty child, I misbehave to test the limits of my Father’s love because it is impossible for me to comprehend that kind of love? What if I start believing that no matter what I feel, as the song says, “The Lord has promised good to me, His Word my hope secures.”?

My challenge to myself and to you today is to fall on His power to transform us, for us to be willing to be changed and free of the sins which so easily entangle us. Lord, please help us live as new creations, which You tell us we are. Help us remember to use the weapons you have given us so that we will stand, not in rebellion any longer, but in Your strength.

Amen